Two Sides of The Wolf

So the last post talked about the word picked in English class, Lone Wolf, a partial persona of mine. How I have the preference to be by myself. Seems to me that this persona seems to exhibit its two side itself. Divided into two, I named them The White Wolf and the Black Wolf. These two are based on how I "accept" or react to self-dependence

The White Wolf exhibits regret of loneliness. This half kicks in during 'bouts of jealousy when he see close friends hang out with each other. There are times when he feels lonely inside, when he see people hanging out. Regressing into a state of deep thought, wondering what he should do to be noticed.


The Black Wolf is more resilient, more accepting of his being. He doesn't care if he has to something by himself, believing that he'll get it over. His mind says that he can do it himself, without the need of help of others. His way of thinking, however, can bring him down in his performance in everyday activities.


These two halves contest each other within me, mostly leaning towards the Black Wolf. Ultimately, both are affected by my interpersonal relationships and how I take them.

What I Said In English

Just this noontime, came the time for me to speak once more in English class. My heart pounds as I get on stage, the whole Tau breaks in tune to "Careless Whisper". "I'm not dancing today" my mind says, as I try to relax amidst the tune, taking a few seconds with my back turned before I face the attentive ears of 29. I talked about the word I picked, or two words to be precise. It can be hard to speak of it within two minutes, but I kept going. Ignoring Nala's two finger as the time limit marker, kept going 'til the nerves got to me and I stopped as she raised three fingers.

I kind of wished for more time, but being one minute overtime, I had to stop. At least I have an idea for my new entry here. Here is what could have been my whole speech.

Que Intro

A long time coming

Its been a long time since the inception of the idea, the idea of posting info online for the world to see, the idea of writing a blog. I put a lot of thought into it, I put in practically a year thinking of who will read it, what it should look like, how to share it with other and most of all, what should it contain. Slowly, the idea witled as time paves it way and the planning of the blog halts to a stand still.

The times  have changed. That idea resurfaces from my subconcious, from its dormancy once more. My blog is born at last, no planning, no thoughts, just created it and I guess plan to learn along the way.

My name is Raj Luz, and I am a student learning the ropes in life
I'll write about anything, thoughts, experiences, reactions about and to the world we live in.
Let this imagination of mine cascade into a flurry of thoughts be shared to you.

Welcome and Enjoy